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Some things are hard to write about. After something happens to you, you go write it down, and either you over dramatize it or underplay it, exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important ones. At any rate, you never write it down quite the way you want to. -- Sylvia Plath

If you're here because you're randoming around Livejournal, please feel free to say hello.

If you're here because I've added you (and you're probably checking my journal to see who the hell I am), I've done so because something you've written has captured my attention span for more than a moment or two, or perhaps it's because we have similar interests, or quite possibly - people in common. I don't expect to be added in return, but feel free to do so.

If you're here following a comment in a friend's journal or a community, please let me know! I always welcome discussion from new acquaintances. I love verbose people, people that provoke me into lengthy conversations and people who make me think outside the box.

In addition, for those that are already here: I like a sense of balance on my friends list, and if you choose to remove me from your friends list, I will likely do the same. If you haven't updated your journal in over a year, I will probably remove you. If you're still out there reading, comment below and I will add you back.

That being said, welcome.

i watch the story unfold.

sometimes i dictate the story to myself, then sometimes to the world.
sometimes i take dictation. sometimes i get it wrong.

--Amanda Palmer

May. 27th, 2015

FYI: I am still here, and still reading, but LJ is being a bit of a bear with letting me post comments.. heck, sometimes it won't even let me read them without giving me their "page not found" goat. :/

So.. I'm trying. Big move in progress. Will update soon.

Hey, an update!

Just swapped out an old 250gb hdd for a cheap 500gb, solely for music (I was running out of room! It's all those HD Video podcasts of TED, right? Oh, and, every CD I've ever owned, plus some digital stuff..), and this was the better option, short of building a new system (Hmm. $50 vs $1000. Yeah, I'll go with $50 for now). So far, so good. Replacement external #2 arrived from Western Digital, too. We'll see if this one is a piece of crap, too.

This week, I have been kicking ass and taking names where it comes to housework and taking care of me. I'm sorry that I didn't get to come home to see my grandmother, but this stuff needed done. My world has felt like utter chaos for quite awhile, and I really needed the time to get things back in order. I certainly feel better for it.

Also, RIP Roger Ebert.

I have really loved having this time off, and I am going to be sad to see Spring Break come to a close in a few days. Ugh. More time, please?


Still here, but crazy-busy with 20 credit hours this semester, and 2 on-campus jobs. I have so much to say, dear LJ, and no time in which to say it. Meh. :( I cannot -wait- for this summer, when I will be taking only 1 class for 5 weeks, then have 5-6 weeks off. Hooray!

Wyrding Studios Anniversary!

Wyrding Studios is about to begin their anniversary festivities, so I'm going to post a link to one of my favorite pieces that Kythryne has made: New Wine from Old Casks. It's gorgeous.


I first heard of Wyrding Studios when it was called Wearable Sculpture, and I'm pretty sure my friend Anne (once known here as quikslvr ) told me about her work. I remember possibly seeing it on a Holiday Wishlist, and I think I bought Anne a labradorite pendant from that wishlist a a gift.

Anyway, this is a contest entry for shinies, if I am lucky! Kythryne has stated that she'll be doing an Instant Gratification Monday (aka IGM) at some point soon, so you should check it out over at wyrding_studios, and you can see what's new at http://wyrdingstudios.com. :)

Education is a blessing and a bane..?

Hmm. Sometimes I think having more knowledge/education in certain areas makes me a better patient in some doctor's eyes, and a worse one in others. My doctors are usually happy to tease me about this, but I appreciate that they know they can speak frankly with me - case in point, I had a discussion today with my PCM about squamous epithelial vs squamous columnar cells in the esophagus - but sometimes it seems to make them deeply uncomfortable. His nurse, after a moment of discussion about where my best veins are (and how I probably should have drank more water last night) refused to do my venipuncture and called for the girl that always gets called for patients that are "hard sticks''. I am not a hard stick, I don't have rolling veins (and truthfully, no one's veins should roll if they are held down appropriately), and I was mystified. Some health care professionals appreciate my direct manner, some are really unnerved by it. But I *will* ask you what you are testing for, I will ask to see you label my tubes, I will be a part of this process. If I don't, who will? I am the best advocate for my own health care, and I take it very seriously.
(drinking 66 6-packs of Doodle Delight!)

It's been about another month since last I wrote. In the last few weeks, I've kept my nose in textbooks, I've scored well on my exams, I've helped Courtney adjust to her new school, I've seen my husband off on his third deployment, I got a job with my school (starting today, actually/officially), I was in a minor car accident (rear-ended, no visible damage until I got in the car and noticed the airbag light was on.. after we *didn't* file a report or exchange information. Sigh. My own fault for not getting it, I should know better..), I had an adverse reaction to a vaccine. All with smiles, tears, and exhausted sighs - that was the month of September.

Honestly, it was just so frustrating and exhausting that I almost kind of don't even want to document it in detail. Here's to an awesome Octember.. I mean, October. ;)

Putting this here for my reference.

Nutella Frappè!! So easy and refreshing! ♥

Ingredients for 2 persons:
250ml cold milk
2 tablespoons nutella
2 ice cubes
whipped cream for decorating (optional)

Put half the milk in the blender. Add the nutella and the ice cubes. Blend then add gradually the remaining milk.

Decorate with some whipped cream if desired.

Finally settling in!

I've had this window open for a week, trying to figure out precisely what I wanted to say, but not really finding the words. But I'm here now, and that's all that matters. This will probably be a bit long and rambly.

Courtney and I headed down to Jacksonville on the last Friday she was in camp (June 23) - in fact, we left Dayton within an hour of her getting out of her last camp session. I think we got in around 2:30am or so. Since then, I've spent the last few weeks unpacking, sorting through things, and spending time with Gabe.

The sheer amount of paper that I pulled from my files the other day to be shredded is monstrous; the pile that I put in the recycle bin the other night was much bigger. I just didn't have the time or inclination to go through it all before leaving, so I'm doing it all now. Most of 'my stuff' is in our 3rd bedroom/my office - even a good deal of my clothes, since our closet is kind of on the small side (only my day-to-day shirts are in that closet) - Gabe gets about 75% of our bedroom closet and all of the double-door hallway storage closet for his clothes and gear, which takes up more space than you'd think, especially with all the supplemental stuff he's bought (med bags, etc).

So, all my stuff is in my office, essentially. And I've spent the last week sifting through it. It feels so nice to finally feel like I get a 'clean slate'. I love moving and I love getting rid of things, for this reason. I think we all hoard things, to a degree - even if it's just data, bookmarks/links, etc - and it feels liberating to let it all go. I'm not quite done yet, and if I'd been a bit more disciplined about it, I would probably be done. But I don't have any obligations until school starts on August 16th, so I've got time to waste - as long as I get everything done.

Gabe is in the Mojave desert for a pre-deployment field op. He left on Sunday night and won't be back until August 18th, but that's okay. Things around the house have fallen into something of a 'status quo' routine, which is fine with Courtney and me. It's comfortable, anyway.

Since I've been here, the only really new development is that Gabe bought a new car. I was trying to get him to hold off until the beginning of July, to wait until all his paid-off credit cards hit his credit report, but he was getting antsy, and I was getting tired of hearing about it. Turns out, the credit didn't matter that much - while his credit was rated a B+ (and they said it was near impossible to get anything higher than he had due to length of time credit history, that you don't generally surpass an 800 credit score until your late 30s/early 40s), due to the amount of our downpayment (which was roughly half the cost of the car - he'd gotten it from a military bonus, the first he's ever gotten in the 10 years he's been in as corpsmen don't get bonuses until this stage in their career), Volkswagen Credit offered him 0% financing. Seriously. No interest. I don't even know how that works. We're going to save up another downpayment and get me in a new car either next year or the year after, and clean up my credit in the process. We're hoping for a similar deal. Anyway, he now has a 2012 Volkswagen GTI Autobahn. It's nice enough, I suppose - not exactly what I'd choose, but it's not my car. All the bells and whistles that it comes with are pretty fancypants, though. One night, the car's bluetooth connected to his phone and was streaming MP3s from his pocket, which we both got a good laugh out of. He was so used to connecting his phone to the iPod cable that he wasn't expecting it. :) He's upgraded his car to Level 1 (added some cold-air intake thing), and is planning on taking it to Level 2, which means that we're going to take some time in the next few months and go down to Charleston, SC to get that done. I've never been, so I'm really looking forward to it. :)

Also, while I am thinking about it, with all those fancypants features in his new car, Gabe didn't need his Garmin GPS unit any longer, so he put it in my car. Thus far, it's a nice novelty. I generally read maps ahead of time, but I like seeing the street names on it. I have yet to punch directions into it. If I were new here, it would probably be a bit more handy, but it's fun, nonetheless. :)

Courtney's 16th birthday was a little over a week ago. We drove up to New Bern to attempt to get a National Parks Pass (denied - I got there *just* as everyone went to lunch, go figure. I'll just get them in Dayton when we go later this month), then down through Havelock, Morehead City, and Atlantic Beach, which I'd never done before. Our ultimate destination was the Pine Knoll Shores Aquarium, which I'd taken Courtney to on a previous birthday. We became members of the aquarium while there, so we can go any time we like. I'm looking forward to going in the fall and winter, when it's a bit less busy than it was last week. It was *crazy* busy there that day. Not only are people vacationing down here right now, but all the military families were out and about, too, since they were on a holiday 96 for July 4th.

16th birthday

I've got a picture of her with someone in a penguin costume, but every time I try to insert it, it gets too blurry with the resizing. Whatever.

Courtney seems to be settling in well, but she's staying up late, sleeping in late, and I suspect she's a bit depressed. I would be, too, though - she just left her school, her friends, everything that defines her life to start over, and not by her choice. :/ I'm giving her some leeway and lots of space. Mostly, she's been watching stuff on Netflix, texting her friends, and poking around on her netbook. I know she's hoping to go to Ohayocon next year and is trying to plan for it, but I told her there's no guarantee - she'd have to miss a couple of days of class. I need to see how things pan out for her in the next couple of months school-wise.. I'm afraid she's going to be behind, or that her grades will suffer a bit. She never adjusts well to moving (it usually takes her around 18 months to feel fully grounded in her social network, from what I've observed over the last few moves), and moving during high school is the absolute worst. She's already upset that Lejeune High doesn't offer much in the way of arts classes, so I've offered to enroll her in some Continuing Education classes at the college - Cake Decorating and Jewelry Making to start, since it will work out well with my class schedule (I'll have to come home and pick her up/take her back to campus 1 or 2 nights a week). I'm hoping to get her into their Drawing classes, as well as Beginner & Advanced Sewing classes later on, since her sewing machine is sitting idle. Pretty much all the CE classes look interesting to her, and they're only $35, so that's not too terrible.

This past Wednesday I went out to dinner with one of Gabe's IDC school classmates, Amy, and several of her other friends. Not sure how well that went, if I talked too much/not enough/whatever. I have difficulty in social situations with "normal women" (for lack of a better term) because we just don't always value the same things. I can get along with *most* people, but I get along best with people that are very laid back, relaxed, and friendly. You know, the complete opposite of me. ;) I think it went well enough, but I'm not entirely sure. We'll see if I get invited to anything else, that will probably be a good indicator.

My 34th birthday is 3 weeks from today. Last year's birthday royally sucked (I got a speeding ticket on my way to my birthday massage, then I went to work since I had just started working at the lab two weeks prior), so this year's will easily be better, I am sure. It falls on a Friday this year. I don't know what I'll do just yet, but I'll sort it out.

I've got a long list of things I'd like to do in the coming months. I've been looking at a lot of local places to check out, mostly museums and state parks. I came up with a list and it's hanging on my fridge, mostly as a reminder that there -are- things to do around here if we just look. After the crazy heat wave ended (it was 99F or higher here, and we were advised to stay indoors), the rain came, and it's been raining off and on for days. At least it's cooler outside, and no longer feels like you walk into a wall of water when you step outside.

But with rain comes bugs. I'm already sick of the monster-sized Palmetto bugs that are native to here, and often find their way into the house (how, I have *no* idea) when it rains. I need it to stop raining for a bit and dry up so that I can spray the outside of the house. I generally don't bother unless the bugs get invasive, and we're just seeing far too many of them. They're definitely Palmettos (American Cockroaches) based on the size, not German roaches, but still. A roach is still a roach in my eyes, and it doesn't need to be in my house. I just want to leave them a warning to stay outside and be the good little decomposers that they're supposed to be. :P Truthfully, I discovered that lizards eat palmetto bugs, and we used to see little anoles and skinks around here all the time. Where's my lizards? I would like to devise a way to being more reptiles and amphibians to my house, please. Just no American Alligators, which have been seen here. They can stay in the salt marshes.

I'm really looking forward to school starting (all but 1 class in my major, woo!). I'll be going full time, but that's okay. I'm currently registered for 12 hours, 9 of which are major courses (Lab Calculations, Clinical Microbiology, Introduction to Med Lab Tech, UA & Body Fluids) and one General/Organic/Biochem class that's an odd hybrid for which I have no direct translation in my previous classes. It should be fairly easy, and as for the rest? With my work experience, I have a huge advantage over my other classmates. The only thing I am concerned about is that despite being a graduate of the college, my GPA does not wipe 'clean slate', and will continue from what it was before (3.681). I have a D on my record from my last semester here (Brief Calculus). My advisor stated that it is up to me whether or not I wish to attempt to retake it, but it would be all out-of-pocket. She also pointed out that my GPA is above 3.5, in case it factored in my decision. Well, yes, it is, but between that, the handful of B's that I had, and that one C in Statistics I (took it twice, still don't understand it), I don't want to get knocked out of the running for any of the lead spots in Clinical Practicum next year. They take in-program GPA, overall GPA, order in original registration (I was probably the first to enroll for the program in February, but last to register for classes, since I wasn't here for orientation), and attendance in didactic courses into account. You don't necessarily get assigned close to where you live. I'd love to be assigned to the Naval Hospital since it's roughly 5 minutes door to door, but I'm wildly competitive about this, and I want assigned to the best placement that I can get. So.. I've got some thinking to do. I need to decide before spring semester enrollment.

I think that's it for now. This is long enough, anyway. I'm going to leave it unlocked & uncut so that it can hit Gabe's RSS feed when he makes it to a WiFi hotspot, which seems to happen about once a day. :)

Moving moving moving

I am up to my eyeballs in move prep - getting rid of some things, setting aside what I will hand-carry, etc. But since I'm still in class and working, there's not nearly enough time to get all of it done. I know that I'll spend a good chunk of the summer just unpacking and donating/tossing/Craigslisting. Ugh. Can this be over yet?

Packing starts in roughly 60 hours.

Apr. 29th, 2012

I'm still up, cleaning like a madwoman. I know that this isn't exactly a house showing as if we were selling real estate (at least, I hope not!) but I have zero plans to leave once the landlord brings the next tenants through unless he insists that I head out. After all, all my stuff is here, and so are my cats.

Still, I'm cleaning like I'm crazy, worrying about things that more than likely, no one will notice.

Content coming soon?

Plans for the move are underway. I'm buried under school work, regular work, and getting the house cleaned up for potential tenants to walk through tomorrow night. I expect there to be much more content coming this summer, though, once all that wraps up. :)

I miss you all. I still love Livejournal. It's still the first site I check daily, to see what you all are up to. <3

Livejournal > Facebook, any day. :D

Mar. 19th, 2012

A million times This. I wish she had a repost button. It hurts my mind to think that we are discussing these types of women's issues in these times. I cannot even comprehend it.

Writer's Block: B.Y.O.B. Holidays

What is on your holiday wish list this year? One random answer will win a $50 Amazon gift card. [Details here]

I'm already getting the biggest wish on my list - time with my husband, who has been on the other side of the country since last April, in Independent Duty Corpsman school (US Navy). 4 more days! :D

Other than that?

I'd like for the Navy to figure out where our next duty station is before Christmas, I'd like people to donate to City Kitties, and for the material (literally, I suppose?), I'd like this scarf, these socks, and these snacks.

I'm fairly easy to please, I just can't make the wheels of the government move faster, sadly.

Today I...

*took a shower.
*made it to the Organic Chem study group 2 hours late (and I wasn't the last one to arrive, either!).
*took Courtney to get a sandwich from Arby's.
*dorked around online instead of finishing my Ochem lab notebook (which really, really needs to get done tonight.. )

Oh, Procrastination. Thou art my nemesis.

Honestly, these days? I love Biology/Human Anatomy, I loathe Organic Chemistry, and all I want to do these days is clean my house. I'm glad I get the entire month of December off to do just that (well, in addition to working). If I can make it out of OChem with a passing grade, I will spend the entirety of the month of December reviewing for next quarter. It's been very challenging to try to take this class and work at the same time. I regret doing it, a little.

I will do a hello/bio post soon for those that are new. :) Most of my posts are Friends Only for a variety of reasons, but I'll let this one be public for a little bit, in case people are wandering over here to check out my journal from the friending meme. Hi! :)

I am participating in this..

.. as I suspect that if I have a larger audience, I might have more to say. ;) You should check it out, too!

Tina's Fabulous Winter Friending Meme


If you're coming back to LJ from the most recent FB fiasco, and I had you defriended for inactivity, just comment so I can re-add you. Welcome back! :)

(Meaning: If you haven't been seeing my occasional posts, I probably thought you weren't using the site any longer. Just let me know you're here!)

In addition to my last post..

I'd also like to put in a good word for my friend Karen (karenthecroccy)and her husband, Bryan. They are participating in the walk for Autism Speaks in Oregon, and they have two weeks left in their fundraising efforts. I have known Karen for roughly 15 years through the intertubes, and I can vouch for her credibility. If you're interested in contributing, their links are following. :) I contributed to Bryan today, and will be sending Karen a bit when payday hits.

Bryan: http://www.walknowforautismspeaks.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=469772&lis=0&kntae469772=B6A14AC5B56B43659F525691B920CE14&supId=333159444

Karen: http://www.walknowforautismspeaks.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=469772&lis=0&kntae469772=B6A14AC5B56B43659F525691B920CE14&supId=330116089

JDRF Walk to Cure Diabetes

This will be quick, as I'm getting ready for work. :)

I am participating in the JDRF walk through my workplace this year. My fundraising goal is $500, and there's 44 days until the walk. If you'd like more information, or would like to toss a donation my way, you can check out my page here. :)

Offline for a bit..

Dealing with a power outage that may take weeks to repair, according to the fire department. We had a major storm that was just shy of a F0 tornado blow through last night. It took down trees everywhere, and the power lines behind my house? Well, I don't think they're supposed to look like spaghetti noodles.

I will check in as I can. For now, most short updates are going to Facebook and Google+. I need to see if there's an Android app for LJ, because I am missing LJ like whoa.

Hope to be back soon, blogginators. <3

The Thing in the Kitchen Pantry

Preface: Courtney and I haven't been eating as many canned goods in a good long while. She doesn't like the taste, I'm trying to move towards fresher foods. I might put things in the pantry and get them out fairly quickly, but the stuff in the back should really be donated, because we're not using it.

This morning, I'm getting ready to head out to school, when I remember that I was planning on making a ham today, and that it needs to be put in the oven before I leave. I go to the pantry to grab a can of pineapple, only to discover that the one I grabbed was strangely.. light in mass. I look, and there's an open can, remnants covered in green mold.

There's no reason for an open can to be in the pantry, so I'm baffled. Then I remember a handful of months back, I found a can lid in the pantry, sitting all by itself. I thought it was bizarre, but I pitched it and never understood why.

As far as I can guess, the can was probably contaminated with spores of some sort, didn't pass the canning process for killing them off, and it probably bulged and exploded in the pantry. And we never knew, because we're just not in there that often.

I kind of want to scrub myself with bleach now, and I want to toss everything in the pantry. Ewwww.


Cutting a lot of journals, since a people aren't on this site any longer, having left for Facebook and such. If you come back, or if I've made an error (either a cut by mistake or you're out there, silently reading), comment and let me know. :)

Mostly for my own reference..

The Babelfish translation of this is actually pretty amusing. :) Anyone out there speak German? I know that Babelfish doesn't do a good translation.. and I know bits and pieces, but not much.

I'm just amused, though. :) This song is so, so deviously naughty, all on its own. :)

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